- How do you know that your need to be proactive—contra being listless and apathetic—doesn’t, in fact, derive from a reaction to an emotion—of inferiority, of insecurity, of existential dread, etc.—that you are, as you say, addicted to?
- Is a state of (adrenaline-induced) exhilaration any more ’enlightened’ than wallowing in a torpid state of apathy?
- Isn’t there a place beyond (in front of) the dips and spikes of mental-emotional states?
I’d say ’in front of’ because when you integrate and transcend a developmental stage: you do not advance and move beyond something, but rather you let go of something or, to be more precise, the clutches of that thing let go—and what previously functioned as part of the background [of consciousness], now becomes part of the foreground. It’s an uncoiling that takes place, actually, not a spiraling.
Also: regarding success and so-called success barriers.
What if we have success barriers because of a deeper intuition we have? What if we feel unworthy and undeserving of stuff because deep down we know that we do not need that stuff?
Clearly, it’s not things that matter (the Perfect 10, the Porsche 911, the fancy crib) but the sentiment we project onto these things. So long as we buy into the idea of success, there’ll be things that we place high on a pedestal and against which we position ourselves as separate from and less than: as someone who’s not there yet. So long as abundance is conceived of as some form of material and inter-personal wealth or capital, it is a poor measure of success: True success is a freedom from the need for anything more than what’s already given. It’s not what you have that makes you feel abundant, but the number of things you don’t need.
but then again: I stand still to be corrected. . .